Quotes from Beatrice Sparks

How is it possible for me to be so miserable and embarrassed and humiliated and beaten an function still talk and smile and concentrate?

Why is life so difficult? Why can't we be just ourselves and have everyone accept us the way we are?

I would like to stay stoned all the time, it scares me it's so good. I would like to stay stoned every minute of every day for the rest of my life.

The complete bottom has fallen out of my life.

It's a good thing most people bleed on the inside or this would be a gory, blood-smeared earth.

Sometimes fantasies are better than life.

I'm not really sure which parts of myself are real and which parts are things I've gotten from books.

They don't think "I care," "I hurt," or "I have feelings." It just seems like I'm always "wrong," always "selfish," always "self-centered" and everything else that's negative and destructive.

Sometimes fantasies are better than life.

When I'm with him, everything makes so much sense…when I'm away, it's so much shit.

Tal vez ha sido bueno sufrir tanto, pues eso me hará más comprensiva y tolerante con el resto de la humanidad.

I wanted to ask God to help me but I could utter only words, dark, useless words which fell on the floor beside me and rolled off into the corners and underneath the bed.

My biggest mistake: not wanting to help myself into thinking I am happy, that change would come about without really trying to change, or wanting to change. Procrastinating about changing. I do want to change.

I pretend I've got lots of confidence and I'm a big jock and like that but deep inside I'm a frightened, insecure, can't-make-it failure.

You can't do anything to please anybody or say anything to please them or even dress so they'll be happy and give you a smile.

Antes pensaba que la única que sentía las cosas era yo, pero realmente no soy sino una parte infinitamente pequeña de la humanidad que sufre.

I thought I was unhappy before… I was just a stupid young kid that didn't know what happiness was. I was like a snot in a candy store who not only wanted all he could eat, but the whole thing. Life is stupid. Stupid. Or at least to this point, mine is.

Why so much hate in your mind when love is the only way to straighten things out?

Adolescents have a very rocky insecure time. Grown-ups treat them like children and yet expect them to act like adults. They give them orders like little animals, then expect them to react like mature, and always rational, self-assured persons of legal stature.

I would like to stay stoned all the time, it scares me it's so good. I would like to stay stoned every minute of every day for the rest of my life.

I'm partly somebody else trying to fit in and say the right things and do the right thing and be in the right place and wear what everybody else is wearing. Sometimes I think we're all trying to be shadows of each other...

Cómo puedo sentirme tan miserable, turbada, humillada, apaleada, y hablar todavía, funcionar, sonreír y, concentrarme?

Incluso con mis amigas no soy realmente yo misma. En parte soy otra; tratando de encajar, de decir cosas apropiadas, de hacer las cosas requeridas, de estar en el lugar más indicado, de vestir como visten todos. A veces pienso que cada uno trata de ser la sombra de otro; compramos los mismos discos y hacemos como los demás, aunque no nos guste. Los muchachos son como robots, piezas en línea para el montaje, y yo no quiero ser un robot.

Tengo este necio temor: el temor de ser vieja sin haber sido nunca joven de verdad.