Quotes from Sarah Darer Littman

Every time my parents bring up the subject of if I want to go back to Lake Hills or transfer somewhere else it makes me want to take more pills. Like that's even a possibility. Anything that might resemble a pill is under lock and key in our house. The next time I get my period, I'm going to have to ask Mom's permission for a Midol. She's probably going to ration my use of tampons in case I try to make a noose out of the strings.

While I'm counting with the Count, I list the reasons why I wish the pills had worked. 1. I wouldn't have to face going back to school. 2. I wouldn't spend the rest of my life being known as the girl who tried to kill herself and failed at that, too. 3. I wouldn't have to remember, and so, because of that, and here's the biggie: 4. I wouldn't have to feel. Anything. Ever again.

This is America. We're supposed to be free to be Jewish here, to live in peace and not be afraid. George Washington literally said so in that letter he wrote to the Hebrew Congregation of Newport, Rhode Island. (163)

Emotion pours over me like a tidal wave, drowning me with primitive force.

I need to show on the outside as much as I feel it on the inside.