Quotes from John Ostrander

Your anger is like a violent storm, Cade. Your emotions swirl, churning inside of you. You have to find a place of peace within that anger. An "eye" in the storm. You must center yourself within that calm eye -- in the Light. You think you cannot know peace, but the possibility of peace is all around you. If a thought or memory intrudes on your meditation, it must be like the shadow of a cloud passing across a moon. Let it go.

Knowledge does not enter the unquiet mind.

You have lost nothing that matters. You have everything you need. Everything before leads up to now and now leads to what shall be.

Heh. Deny it all you want, colonel. At heart, we're both flip sides of the same coin: wolves who don't fit in the pack.

I realized that the Internet could be a mask as surely as any cowl. I could assume an identity — and this time, not a second-hand version of someone else. This would be mine — my mask, my shield — my persona." 

A little over a year has passed since my old life ended, since I died and was reborn. The shadows remain, but only to give contrast to the light. I am no longer a distaff impersonation of someone else. I'm me--more that I have ever been. My life is my own. I embrace it, and the light, with a deep, continuing joy.