Quotes from Jennifer Niven

What would I have said to him if I'd known I would never see him again?

The problem with people is they forget that most of the time it's the small things that count. Everyone's so busy waiting in the Waiting Place.

You don't know how it is. It's like I've got this angry little person inside me, and I can feel him trying to get out. He's running out of room because he's growing bigger and bigger, and so he starts rising up, into my lungs, chest, throat, and I just push him right back down. I don't want him to come out. I can't let him out.

Disguise the pain. Don't call attention. Don't be noticed.

Do whatever it takes to remind myself that I'm still here and have a say.

Before I die I want to __________.

It's about the important things, like the way their face lights up when they laugh, or the way they move as they're walking towards you, or the way their freckles create a map of the stars.

Let's go. Let's count for something. Let's get off that ledge.

If a song's meant to stay around, you carry it with you in your bones.

People like Theodore Finch don't die.He's just wandering.

We can't fight another person's battle, no matter how much we want to.

If there's one thing i know, it's that no one can promise anything.

You're probably better at math than I am, because pretty much everyone's better at math than I am, but it's okay, I'm fine with it. See, I excel at other, more important things—guitar, sex, and consistently disappointing my dad, to name a few.

The cadence of suffering has begun - Cesare Pavese I am in pieces.

Maybe even the smallest places mean something.

Never bullshit a bullshitter.

This is what I know about loss. It doesn't get better. You just get (somewhat) used to it.

I want you to know I'm rooting for you.' Sometimes we need to hear that, even from a stranger.

You might expect me to say "life," having just woken up and all, but it's only when I'm awake that I think about dying.

If that blue could stay for ever; if that hole could remain for ever." There was nothing to make him last.

The last wandering

Labels like "bipolar" say This is why you are the way you are. This is who you are. They explain people away as illnesses.

It's my experience that the people who are most afraid are the ones who hide behind mean and threatening words.

For a minute, I can feel it: the sense of peace as my mind goes quiet, like I'm already dead. I am weightless and free. Nothing and no one to fear, not even myself.