Quotes from Alice Notley

All my life, since I was ten, I've been waiting to be in this hell here with you; all I've ever wanted, and still do.

I wish you didn't have to go through things I've been through.

I like the beauty of being restored to myself, in the pollen light

the litup soul/self I have been From time to time I can't remember

This clearing is full of false lights, flickers that stop when you look.

walking densely through streets hanging on to self, I've tried to be a horde but I'm a blank star, billions of those on fire.

Didn't want anyone to find me, not yet.

I have no hope then? the patient asks. There is no hope or change. Have I not changed? the patient asks. How could anything so empty change?

because you already know what I mean. You read my mind.

I feel like an old, opaque secret.

which I remember from my human past and from longing.

Your phantasmagoric wound has closed.

Your thoughts have given up, finally.

I am the being within you, outside time and unhaunted.

you stepped outside time to find me. But you are the inventor of time and you will go back.

I didn't mean to be born.

You return here at night when you dream. A part of your waking self remains

You were sick, so sick, with your wound of thwarted longing

I want to be with him in my thoughts; I want to live with him in my mind.

It is outside time that you heal. Walk with me outside time.

I am able to reach someone by thinking towards them, partly in words. I send forth my thoughts.

You will receive in flashes a new knowledge in language you won't know.

It's now strange to live in this body. I don't feel at one with it at all.

we will never see our own bodies, existing for the eyes of others.