Quotes from Jennifer Niven

I can go downstairs right now and let my mom know how I am feeling-if she's even home-but she'll tell me to help myself to the Advil in her purse and that I need to relax and stop getting myself worked up, because in this house there's no such thing as being sick unless you can measure it with a thermometer under the tongue. Things fall into categories of black and white- bad mood, bad temper, loses control, feels sad, feels blue.

Better to keep the unhappy, mad, bad, unpleasant words separate, where you can watch them and make sure they don't surprise you when you're not expecting them

At least it feels that way standing here with you." He closes his blue eyes and breathes in. When he opens them again, he says, "Actually, standing next to you makes it feel as high as Everest." I

Even the smallest places mean something. And if not, maybe they mean something to us.

I feel a lot of nothing

You deserve better. I can't promise you I'll stay around, not because I don't want to. It's hard to explain. I'm a fuckup. I'm broken, and no one can fix it. I've tried. I'm still trying. I can't love anyone because it's not fair to anyone who loves me back.

The thing suicides don't focus on is their wake. Not just your parents and siblings, but your friends, your girlfriends, your classmates, your teachers." I like the way he seems to think I have many, many people depending on me, including not just one but multiple girlfriends.

Lovely' is a lovely word that should be used more often.

But it was a damn good smile. A genuine one, which is hard to come by these days." -Finch

Finch,April 3. "Today is your day. You're off to Great Places! You're off and away!" I sign my name and write: "Your mountain is waiting. So... get on your way!

He smiles out at the ugly trees and the ugly farmland and the ugly kids as if he can see Oz. As if he can really, truly, see the beauty that's there.

We alternate choosing places to go, but we also have to be willing to go where the road takes us. This means the grand, the small, the bizarre, the poetic, the beautiful, the ugly, the surprising. Just like life. But absolutely, unconditionally, resolutely nothing ordinary.

The great Anna Faris once said that the secret of surviving high school is to "lay low.

I love the thrill of impending, weightless doom, so I built something to give me those feelings all the time...I like the idea of something that can give you those feelings all the time. I want something like that, and then I look at Violet and think: There she is.

This means the grand, the small, the bizarre, the poetic, the beautiful, the ugly, the surprising. Just like life. But absolutely, unconditionally, resolutely nothing ordinary.

Sometimes you got to just feel, especially when it comes to music. Notes, scales, they just get in the way.

Like everything else that doesn't last, today is gone now, but it was a pretty good day. The best I've had in months.

And sorry wastes time. You have to live your life like you'll never be sorry. It's easier just to do the right thing from the start so there's nothing to apologize for

Gentlemen are rare. They're like virgins or leprechauns. If I ever get married, I'm going to marry one.

This is my secret---that any moment I might fly away.

I think I've got a map in my car that wants to be used, and I think there are places we can go that need to be seen. Maybe no one else will ever visit them and appreciate them or take the time to think they're important, but maybe even the smallest places mean something. And if not, maybe they can mean something to us.

Words can be bullies.

Tell her what she wants to hear. But I don't because suddenly I can't do it anymore. She's exhausting and I'm exhausting, and we're exhausting. I've been telling her what she wants to hear for the past four years.

There are bright places, even in dark times. And if there isn't, you can be that bright place with infinite capacities.