Quotes from Jennifer Niven

There are all the things I told him and he told me. I've never done that with anyone other than Saz- essentially waked up to them and said, 'Here is me. All the messy, unattractive things that I keep locked up inside. Every last ugly, broken, complicated piece.' And he didn't bat an eye. He just opened his mouth and showed me some of his own messy pieces. And instead of running away, he kissed me.

The cadence of suffering has begun." -Cesare Pavese I am in pieces.

E' come se dentro me ci fosse una creatura incazzata che scalpita per uscire. Sono anni che mi cresce dentro e ormai occupa tutto lo spazio, mi preme sui polmoni, sul petto, sulla gola. Io faccio di tutto per ricacciarla indietro. Non voglio farla uscire. Non posso farla uscire". "Raccontami di un giorno perfetto

Gentlemen are rare. They're like virgins or leprechauns. If I ever get married, I'm going to marry one." I can't resist saying, "A virgin or a leprechaun?

sorry waste time. you have to live your life like you'll never be sorry. It's easier just to do the right thing from the start so there's nothing to apologize for.

White contains all the wavelengths of the visible spectrum at full brightness. -Theodore Finch

Just because she smiled at me

The Boy Violet Markey Loves

One of the great pleasures of my life is making comments like this, because having a gay son is my bigoted prick of a father's worst nightmare.

Just promise me you won't be one of those couples that stays together for the children. That only screws people up, including the children.

Open your eyes and look at me! I'm right bloody here!

All these words and stories. My mom calls them the color of a human life: those little moments that are so uniquely ours.

I'd go to Hoosier Hill with a beautiful gir

You made me feel gold,flowing too

What better and more...appropriate way to start off...the semester than by beginning...with the highest point?

I love the world that is my room. It's nicer in here than out there, because in here I'm whatever I want to be.

feel free to choose the places that strike our fancy, no matter how obscure or far away.

the thing about being Awake is that everything in you is alive and aching and making up for lost time.

The thing I don't say is: I want to stay alive. The reason I don't say it is because, given that fat folder in front of him, he'd never believe it. And here's something else he'd never believe--I'm fighting to be here in this shitty, messed-up world. Standing on the edge of the bell tower isn't about dying. It's about having control. It's about never going to sleep again.

All because she smiled at me. But it was a damn good smile. A genuine one, which is hard to come by these days.

Das ist es, was ich mit Violet machen will: Ich will ihr das Gute geben und das Schlechte von ihr fernhalten, damit wir nur von Schönheit umgeben sind. (Finch)

I'm trying out Theodore Finch, '80s kid, and seeing how he fits.

I used to think that. But then I realized, believe it or not, it's actually beautiful to some people. It must be, because enough people live here, and they can't all think it's ugly." He smiles out at the ugly trees and the ugly farmland and the ugly kids as if he can see Oz. As if he can really, truly see the beauty that's there.

Apparently, jumping as a means of killing oneself is usually chosen for convenience, which is why places like San Francisco, with its Golden Gate Bridge (the world's top suicide destination), are so popular.